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Kiss me goodnight!

I know something is wrong,
This does not feel quite right,
I lie their frightened
When you kiss me goodnight.
I ignored the rumours,
It is love that we possess
For only,
In your arms, do I find tenderness.
Silently I lie there
My pillow absorbs my tears,
And while you lie there dreaming
I lie awake
With all my fears.
You are not the same,
You have changed somehow,
Instead of making love,
You try to start a row.
Nothing I do is right,
Yet it was before,
I feel the spark begin to die,
That
You don’t want me anymore.

(C)

One day

I sit holding your picture,
Whispering your name,
But you just sit there,
Watching.
Frozen inside the frame.
The tears need no prompting,
They fall hard and fast,
Crying over a lost love,
Lost within the past.
They say that love never fades,
True love will never die,
And the pain does not ease
With the many tears I cry.
So do I have to suffer,
When all I want you see,
Is to be with my loved one,
Or
For him
To be
With me.
We made a vow together,
On our wedding day at the church,
And there is nothing in this whole world,
Which could ever end my search.
We promised we’d be together,
Until our dying day,
But you left so soon,
Why did you go away.
How could the angels,
High in heaven above,
Decide to take you,
Could they not see our love?
So now I search for answers,
Continue to question why,
Praying you will be there waiting
When it’s my turn to die.

© Julie Candlin Weston. 2004

My son.

Let me guide you through this life
For I have walked it’s roads
I know where sadness dwells
I know where pains abodes
I could show you shortcuts
Cutting corners
Avoiding memories
Avoiding mourners
And from the lessons I have learnt
You can cross the bridges
I have burnt
And from the lessons I’ve ignored
You can see the love
I once adored.
You can laugh where I cried
For you life begins
Where my life died.
For you are my soul
The innocence inside
All the truth in a world
Which lied.
You are my future
And when I am gone,
My soul will live
Through
You my son.

© 2005
Julie Candlin Weston